With the evening newspaper spread out across the table, Amy cradled a
cup of comfort. Warming and aromatic, her coffee was her favorite
companion. At the end of a long day - the children asleep, the
supper dishes washed up - there was time to put aside formulating the
plans for morning; time to take a few moments of quiet and scan the
newspaper. Most evenings Amy had only enough of an attention span left
over to chuckle at the "wrong" advice column, but something suddenly
took her attention captive.
"Miss Hammond!"
The named exploded out of Amy's mouth. She hadn't thought or said that
name in years. But in that moment that it appeared in front of her, it
leaped off the page into her memory, bringing it to life. Miss
Hammond - hadn't she been dead for years? Miss Hammond, frail of
frame but determined and imposing in her way, cultured, refined and not
at all the sort of person Amy would ever have expected to meet.
The sort of person Amy might never have met if it weren't for those
fateful words, the sudden and unthinking exclamation of a seventh
grader in a troublesome situation and looking for a way
out.
I always wanted to play the piano", Amy had blurted in that desperate moment.
It was just something to say, something to give the guidance counselor
something to concentrate on. It was another one of those
sessions, the ones where her guidance counselor tried to live up to her
job requirements and guide her. These discussions always went the
same way, Mrs. Garcia was no different than any of the others.
"You're a good student, and gifted. Your grades don't reflect
your abilities and this is Junior High School now, Amy. This is
where your academic career begins to be important to your future. If
you don't come to school you miss opportunities to learn and your
grades suffer."
Academic career. Why had they never understood that words like
that meant nothing to a twelve year old girl? Why was it so
difficult for them to see why she didn't like school? Was she as
invisible to the adults and faculty as she was to everyone else?
Mrs. Garcia droned on and on. Why did she always pick on Amy to
practice her counseling skills on? Amy was in no danger of failing and
there were plenty of other students who were. Amy even knew who
they were. She was in all the same classes as they were.
Amy didn't understand then, she didn't realize that the more school she
skipped and the more her grades slipped, the more likely it was that
she was going to end up in classes that became increasingly less
challenging. The overall effect was to make school a less attractive
choice than it was already. She had a passing grade in all her
classes, why wasn't that enough for people like guidance counselors?
Mrs. Garcia was searching for something to interest Amy, not in school
but in life. When she asked for the hundredth time what Amy would
like to do or study that would interest her, Amy said the first thing
that came into her head.
That was how she ended up taking piano lessons from Miss Hammond.
It was decided - after the guidance counselor had contacted her mother
- that not only Amy, but her brother as well, should be quickly
enrolled in the study of music. Amy's mother was very pleased
with the idea; her sister played the piano and so she was very
sure both her children had latent musical talent. She quickly
located and installed in their tiny livingroom the most inconveniently
large upright piano she could find at the Salvation Army store and
called for the tuner.
Saturday was the appointed day for lessons and each Saturday morning,
instead of running outside wild and free, Amy and her brother Nick
trudged to Miss Hammond's to be instructed in the fine art of tickling
the ivory. Miss Hammond lived on Randall Hill, where all the
large and imposing houses built by the richest and most important
citizens of town were located. The hill was steep, and Amy felt
this weekly struggle with gravity was just her punishment for having
opened her big mouth.
Miss Hammond's struggles had to do more with the students she had taken
on. She certainly earned her seven dollars when it came to Amy
and her brother. Nick could read music, but he couldn't
sight-read. Nick would learn the piece and then play it by heart
every time. He had a wonderful touch, but couldn't play anything
cold. Amy, on the other hand, could sight-read but wouldn't
practice. Miss Hammond constantly scolded her for the way she
positioned her hands, Amy having a tendency to use whatever fingers
were handy to strike the notes that danced across the page rather than
following the accepted patterns. Perhaps if Miss Hammond could
have combined the two children into one, she would have had a
prodigy. Unfortunately all she got were two very musical but very
lazy and stubborn students, whose careers were destined to be in
something much less disciplined than the playing of Beethoven.
Amy probably never would have admitted it then, but she really didn't
hate going to piano lessons. She loved music and it was
interesting to learn how it was made. The best part of the morning was
when it was her brother's turn for a lesson. While Miss Hammond
scolded him for not reading the music, Amy was free to explore the
world Miss Hammond lived in.
Miss Hammond's parlor was spacious and airy. The baby grand piano
was set by a bay window adorned only by sheer panels and that part of
the room always seemed awash in sunlight that made the polished
mahogany of the instrument gleam. The floors were polished as well,
dust-free and shiny hardwood. There were two rugs, persian, in
rich tones of blue and red, but not matching. One was placed
under the piano and the other in the part of the room meant for sitting
and socializing. The spare look of the piano's space was sharp
contrast to the other half of the room. Deep cherry wood tables
with intricately carved legs and feet were topped with embroided
scarves and books of every kind, picture books, history books.
Some had been written by friends of Miss Hammond and inscribed by the
author on the inside cover. It was a glimpse right into the soul
of Miss Hammond to inventory this room, her love of art and music and
fine things was everywhere displayed.
Amy never knew what Miss Hammond seemed to like about her, or Nick for
that matter. It never occurred to her at that time that perhaps
most of Miss Hammond's students were even less talented or diligent
about practice than they were. She now wondered if Miss Hammond
felt there was something alive in them that she wanted to cultivate,
something she didn't see in her other students. Amy never knew
why Miss Hammond chose her and Nick to accompany her for an afternoon
of chamber music and a display of vocal talent of the operatic sort
given by a tall, blonde, curly-haired man in an impressive suit.
Whatever the reason, Amy had felt very grown-up and yet somehow out of
place in that auditorium. Amy thought then of all the worlds that Miss
Hammond had introduced to her, all the experiences she would never have
had if she hadn't been trying to escape an eager and concerned guidance
counselor that day so long ago.
The last time Amy had heard Miss Hammond mentioned was at least a
decade ago. Miss Hammond was gravely ill and in the hospital,
with the sort of illness one does not survive.
Over the years, Amy had relegated Miss Hammond to deepest memory; the
place where people long gone are sent to reside, in brain cells that
are rarely called up to deliver their bits and flashes of those lives
that have briefly intermingled with our own. Until that that evening,
as Amy sipped her coffee and skimmed the paper.
"Virgina E. Hammond, age 97,
from complications of pneumonia,
in a local nursing facility"
In that moment, in those few words: "survived by" "leaves" and " taught
piano in her home", Miss Hammond came brilliantly to life;
resurrected from memory to scold and instruct, tapping a hand on the
piano and counting out the beat as Amy struggled through Fur Elise one
more time.
And then, Miss Hammond was dead. Again.
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Counting the Time
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Re: Counting the Time
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Blueskytavern
on Fri 18 Nov 2005 08:55 AM EST | Profile | Permanent Link
I feel a little guilty reading this, because I had a teacher who is special to me when I think of her. She was my history teacher back in secondary school. She's strict and all. I remember being very afraid of her at first, but as years passed, I grew to respect her. I left secondary school and years just flew, occassionally I'm thinking, I should try to find out what happened to her. I looked around a bit and then never looked harder. Now reading this, I'm thinking, I should try again.
- Liz Re: Re: Counting the Time
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Ned
on Fri 18 Nov 2005 06:22 PM EST | Profile | Permanent Link
The strict teachers end up being the ones you miss most and the ones you respect. There are always teachers who strive to be the students' best friend but in the end, what did they teach you?
If you look too late, you will always regret it. If you can even find her address and send her a Thank You card, I am sure it will mean the world to her. Good Luck, liz. Re: Counting the Time
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Anonymous
on Fri 18 Nov 2005 02:00 PM EST | Permanent Link
Reminds me of a few teachers that now that I have grown a bit and no longer look at them from my angry teenage days I now realize how much I learned from them, but also love and respect them.
Beautiful Ned! Janus Re: Re: Counting the Time
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Ned
on Fri 18 Nov 2005 06:23 PM EST | Profile | Permanent Link
I would say the same to your comment Janus, the teachers who actually taught something aren't always the best liked at the time, but they are the ones we remember as being good teachers.
Re: Counting the Time
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Anonymous
on Sat 19 Nov 2005 08:35 AM EST | Permanent Link
What a lovely poignant memory from Amy's school days. Through out our lives there are always a special few who drop little seeds into our lives maybe never knowing if they will take hold.
You have made me hope that I too can learn to make a difference to at least one other person on my journey. Glenni http://www.livejournal.com/users/emma_furlong Re: Counting the Time
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Ned
on Sat 19 Nov 2005 11:07 AM EST | Profile | Permanent Link
I can attest to the fact that you make big differences in every life you touch Glenni, you are a gem.
Re: Counting the Time
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Anonymous
on Sat 19 Nov 2005 01:24 PM EST | Permanent Link
One thing in particular intrigues me about this story (which I enjoyed very much and which reads beautifully, even on-screen): how am I to take the final line? This seems to me to be important. If I regard the story as pretty much complete at the end of the previous paragraph, it's a touching and, perhaps, sentimental tale, but when I focus on that last word, in a sentence all of its own, a good deal changes, doesn't it?
Ken http://strangerken.blogspot.com Re: Re: Counting the Time
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Ned
on Sat 19 Nov 2005 04:43 PM EST | Profile | Permanent Link
Thank you Ken. I am glad you noticed the last line, and the last word. I think Amy suddenly realizes Miss Hammond was alive all the years she thought she was dead, but this time, older and more nostalgic for the past, Amy experiences her death with more regrets than she did years ago when she consigned Miss Hammond to the "rest in peace" file in her head. Maybe the first time Amy thought she was dead, she was still unable to appreciate what she learned from her, perhaps that is why she is dead again, because this time, for a few moments, Amy brought her to life in her thoughts in ways she never lived in her thoughts before. And then she was dead, again.
I am glad you liked the story. Re: Counting the Time
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Anonymous
on Sun 20 Nov 2005 04:40 PM EST | Permanent Link
... and, suddenly, as with all good writing, what appears to be a straightforward narrative becomes a great deal more than the sum of its parts. Knowing what the author thinks always helps, although it's perhaps presumptuous to ask! Thanks for the response.
Ken http://strangerken.blogspot.com Re: Re: Counting the Time
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Ned
on Sun 20 Nov 2005 06:06 PM EST | Profile | Permanent Link
Thank you Ken, for the time you put into thinking about the piece. I did think about putting all that in there in a less subtle way, but I hoped some of it would come through.
Re: Counting the Time
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Anonymous
on Mon 21 Nov 2005 06:28 PM EST | Permanent Link
Oh it did, Ned, it did come through. That's the way I interpreted the last line, and so I was glad to read here Ken's question and your response.
moose http://findmeabluebird.blogspot.com Re: Re: Counting the Time
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Ned
on Mon 21 Nov 2005 09:06 PM EST | Profile | Permanent Link
Thank you moose. Sometimes it is hard to know what is too little and what would be too much. I appreciate readers who are insightful and thoughtful in their comments and even in questions. Ken is definitely discerning and insightful as I am sure you know. Seems you are too.
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